torn.

Everyday once in a while, as I'm doing a useless executive branch worksheet in government--or while I'm harboring on some stoichiometry problem in chemistry (haha, yeah right), I come to the realization that essentially none of this matters. I've got a foot out the door already. North Oconee can say goodbye to one of their most attractive students because he's nearly gone as it is. Realistically I hate to be one of those people who claim, "UGHH, gurl, once i'm outta hur, i ain't neva comin' back to dis stankly shithole" but inside a part of me is actually saying that (totally verbatim, mind you). Yet simultaneously I'm confronted with feelings of being rushed, leaving all of the people who I thought I was close to behind. I'm going to miss seeing all of those people who I'm not completely "bFF, LOL" with but who I still enjoy and treasure just the same.

College is going to be interesting. I'm unsure as to how well I'll be able to adjust. My room is essentially three times the size of a standard freshman UGA dorm room (no East Campus for me yet) and the lack in living space is going to throw me for a loop. What I really anticipate is some major weight loss. I'm going to be far too lazy to actually make myself get up and ride a bus to the dining halls. Also the sheer amount of walking to classes and such is going to shed some pounds. Not that I have too many to lose, just a few would be welcome to leave. The new friends will be fun too. I'm ready for a set of new people. I'll still talk to you veteran friends but some new material is much in order I'm sorry to say.

Right now is a confusing time. I'm torn between my impending future and the high school life that seems presently pointless to say the least. I haven't done a lick of homework this entire week. How can I make myself do this?? It's never been this hard to muster up any determination.

I ate a whole box of these yesterday. Asian candy reigns supreme.